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Everyday i'm returning to a home of? I cant even find a freakin word to describe this place . Its not even a place for me to say. I did a feat this morning, i dint talk at all yay. I'M FUCKIN HAPPY. Dont even trust me, what you want me to do? Kill myself isit? Just tel me la, i do it for you. God says honour your parents, but how exactly you want me to even dont show you attitude when you're th one who forced me to? I know you care, but this kind, its called torture. TORTURE YOU UNDERSTAND? I DONT CARE WHETHER YOU SEE MY BLOG ANOT, WHACK ME CHASE ME OUT I DONT GIVE A FUCK. IF YOU WERE ME, YOU'LL FEEL TH SAME.

AND CAN YOU PLEASE DONT KEEP USING CHURCH NAME? I LOVE GOD AND CHURCH. all my attitudes arent learnt from church okay? get your facts right. what you hear, isit th truth alright? you can blame me whatever i dont care, stop using everyth saying its church fault. its not i tel you .

Stop talking to me, i dont wanna hear your voice.

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Then again i feel wrong. Yeah you care bout me, but in a way i dont like. I should treasure you, lest i regret next time. I pray that you really can change your way of teaching me. Maybe cause you very stress, but can you like, change how you talk to me? I really hate it. I can tel you that. I'm making sure i wont hate you. Cause afterall you're my dad. I cnt change th fact. God placed me into this family for purpose. I'll pray, and really pray. God'll give me strength :) iloveyou God, and dad, too yeah ._.